Evening all… or, I mean, for me it’s 3am so I guess goodmorning? I don’t know.
So, I haven’t died. I know it’s been quite a while since I posted on here. Essentially uni got on top of me and then my boyfriend of 2 years broke up with me and whoopie, I spiraled into a dark and lonely depression again.
Now, it’d be a lie if I said I was now completely okay and better and everything is amazing. Because it isn’t. Over the last 3 weeks I have barely gotten out of bed to do anything. I still haven’t been to university since christmas. And trust me, I’m not saying this to get attention or ‘romanticise’ it to be like ooh look at me, poor little white girl. In fact, I wish more than anything I didn’t feel like this. If I had the choice, I would not choose to feel alone and worthless and defeated every single day.
But, I will say that I am feeling better than I did a week ago. So, slowly I am improving. I just wanted to let you guys know the situation here. I am going to now try to start writing again. I really need some sort of creative outlet right now so this is going to be my safe place. And I have a feeling that there’s going to be a lot of ‘whoops it is 3am’ posts, because I’ve fallen back into a bad sleeping pattern again!
So guys, I hope you’re all okay and it feels good to be back (if anyone remembers who I am, whoops…)
Love to all.
xo Violet
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